I didn't know what else to do, but just come in here and write down what I'm feeling. This empty-nesting is for the birds ~ what a statement, for real!! You know, I wanted my girls to find great guys - men with passion for life, fire and spit, guys who make them melt and their knees buckle. Daughter #1 has found that kind of fella and has already flown from my coop. My gal with imagination and drive, left me holding the glue gun and tinsel to figure it out for myself.
Daughter #2, might have found that fella with the fire (that's yet to be seen). They just left for the evening, headed out around the pond and on up through the woods out to the main road. I watched until I couldn't see anymore lights. My horsey girl who gets under my skin has taken her sweet time, and low and behold has found her a fella and he has taken my place in the barn. Go figure....
I put on my 70's music that THEY had to help me load on all these IPODS, and mini things and wires and such, but I got it going. I thought it would lift my spirits. I'm waiting on hubby to come home so we can eat this spaghetti meal. Daughter #1 and boyfriend are coming by to eat a little too. I was telling her how empty I was feeling and she just thought this was a hoot. It's very unlike me to feel like I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing, but I do. I could get started on holiday cleaning this evening. It looks like Santa came and all the reindeer made a bee-line through every floor in this house and kicked things everywhere on their way out.
I'm thinking I'll just pour myself a little glass of vino and watch the pretty fire and listen to Eric Clayton, Neil Young.. somebody I know the words to. I remember when they were little girls and I just wanted some time to myself. How I wished for a babysitter to please just come for a while and I would run around like a chicken with its head cut off running errands - just trying to stay caught up.
With this new guy taking up my precious daughter's time and me getting the boot, it's just a weird feeling, like I've lost touch with her. How do you Moms before me do this? I really don't like this. Is it about control issues??
Did you know there are just tons of information on "empty nesting" out there. I googled it just to see what was going on with it and WOW ~ support groups, blogs, help lines, OMG! I'm not at that point - it's just tonight it feels different. It's the creepy silence. We are a loud family when we're together- sometimes organized, but more often unorganized, chaos. Everyone speaks at once, dogs are trying to get in on it, etc. I know I'll figure it out, but a quiet house is very different house.
Thanks for your ear this evening ~ Debi